Until
I got into Christian counseling 4 years after I was born again (March 21, 2004), I wasn't aware of
anything but secular counseling—and all that that entails, I think
this is likely true for most unsaved people. I mean, how would we
know? And OH what a difference! As a fairly new
Christian, I never knew there was such a thing as inner healing. I
can't tell you how excited I was by the newly-found possibility. The
only fruit I knew about was in the produce section of the market! So
imagine my surprise to find out that it not only was that which you
find stinking up your life,
but that the fruit had roots! Roots that, once found, could be dug
out and eradicated by the very tracing and by prayer. Sounds simple.
Simple, but not all easy. But I was willing to do the work and take
the risk. Besides rotten fruit, what did I have to lose?
A
lifetime of woundings were coaxed one-by-one reluctantly from their
dark hiding places and dealt with. They recoiled and shriveled as the
Light touched them. Each week a new and wonderful brick was laid to
the foundation of my all-important healing. The most shocking thing
for me to discover was that I had never (in my whole 4 years of being
saved) trusted God. I thought I did; I said I did; I believed
I did. About halfway into the classes,
we dealt with our images of God--distorted, twisted or otherwise. It
came to the light that never having had anyone in my life that could
be trusted, lo and behold, I subconsciously perceived
God in the same way. In class, I
searched my heart for a word to describe aloud my image of God. It
eluded me. But just as we were about to close in prayer, He let me
know that the adjective I'd been looking for was the one called
"untrustworthy". It made sense. The
second I knew it, it was gone. The
mistrust was gone. It was like a big heavy door slammed down. Now,
that's life-changing! I went back over all the many times He was
faithful in my life to do what He said He would and all the
conversations we'd had. At that moment, I knew I could trust God--not
begin to
trust Him, but trust Him!
Right then and right there! Breakthrough to Joy! I built an altar
there! I do highly recommend it; Jesus The Great Healer is right in
there with you! And heal me He did!
It
slowly dawned on me that through all my past horrible experiences,
God had turned all that around for good, and I was now in a position
to encourage others who may relate to my experiences in some way—and
of course, since Jesus was my Savior and IS my Hero, I was glad to
tell people about all the incredible things He'd done and was (as IS
currently) doing in my life. Just try and stop me!
And
as they say in Christianese, “If He did it for me, He'll do
it for you” And all Glory to God.
3 comments:
Untrustworthy was a word I would have once used too...Unfortunately, after I lost my mother, "hate" was a word that crossed my mind frequently. But not anymore. God guided me through the storm and is making me a stronger person. I finally trust Him again and it feels wonderful! I can weather whatever comes my way with our Savior on my side! :) Your guidance on my path back to Him is a priceless treasure...thank you! <3
Oh wow, Donna!! Thank you and praise God!! So sorry; I never saw your comment until now! God is so good! A Good, Good Father!
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